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| This journal will be erased Monday night, slackers.
don't forget my new one: artista_reale.
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| Well, I'm gonna pack my things (thoughts, memories, etc.) and get moving.
Going to start a new journal, and will be deleting this one at the end of the week.
Felt like this one doesn't represent me as much anymore. Or at least I don't want it to. Complete personal exposure online doesn't appeal to me much anymore.
Hoolie-ness is better in person, anyway.
I'm thinking the new one will be less gossipy/emotional and more of a log for my
artwork, thougts, travels, etc. More matured, if you will.
Anyway: www.livejournal.com/users/artista_reale
Add me and I'll add you, darling.
Thinking about making it friends only... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Baby i'm afraid of a lot of things
But i aint scared of loving you
Baby i know your afraid of a lot of things
But don't be scared of love
Cause people will say all kinds of things
That don't mean a dam to me
Cause all i see is what's in front of me
And thats you
Well, ive been dragged all over the place
Ive taken hits time just don't erase
And baby i can see you've been fucked with too
But that don't mean your loving days are through
Cause people will say all kinds of things
That don't mean a dam to me
Cause all i see is what's in front of me
And thats you
Well i may be just a fool
But i know were just as cool
And cool kids they belong together
-The Yeah Yeah Yeahs | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| You know... there are those times where mother's are 99.9% right, and I can even
admit that. And then there are those times where they have NO CLUE WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT.
I'm trusting my instincts on this one.
She wants to hate Matt's guts, that's fine...
I know that I'm doing this for the right reasons, and NOT because I'm "alone"
and "I just want someone to be with." That was the LAST EFFING THING on my mind.
Jesus Christ, we broke up a year and a half ago... Her and her boyfriend broke up and
got back together, and in her mind it's "different."
No, they probably are, because we let time pass and let eachother grow up to be
different people. And trust me... we talked about it for I dont know how many months
and days and hours and decided it would be best to wait... now the waiting is over.
Oh yeah, and she embarassed me about it in front of my aunt, too.
Very well. I won't be manipulated no matter how much she hates it. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Phantom Planet- Big Brat | | Subject: | OMG | | Time: | 07:00 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/threnody/mice/m-high.gif) crazy |
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| PHANTOM PLANET LAST NIGHT WAS SO EFFING AWESOME!!!!
Will be posting pictures either tonight late or tomorrow.
Encredibly swamped and deadlines are catching up with me!
PS- shoutout to Julie and Becky who came to eat at Panera today! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I sware, I'm not trying to make this a picture journal, but its
coming out that way because I love posting pics and also I enjoy
my new camera a whole bunches. Anyway, I went to the beach with
my little Sickles crew, then afterward my old friend John Whitaker
stopped by which was lovely because I haven't seen him in forever
and I miss him... Too bad I didnt get any pictures of us but I didnt
want to be rude and post something that meant that much, you
know what I mean? Anyway he looks good and seems to be doing well,
just busy like I am, and I'm pleased to know that he has alot of
similar goals as I do. Anyway, I have work tonight as usual
and now both my aunt and cousing from Ecuador are here so that's
always cool. Then I hooked up with my old buddies from Blake
that I haven't seen in forever, Joe Haley and David Burnette.
Here are some pics from Saturday!
( The beach and a mini Blake reunion ) | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| 10:03 am, 20 years ago, on the 18th day of March of the year 1984...
God said, "Let there be Hoolie!"
and there she was. And God saw how good it was.
A little too modern for Genisis, but they'll add it in later ;-)
Everyone have a Happy Hoolie day! I love you!
<33333333333333333333333
PS- Vanessa and Victoria are the best... when I went to my car
to go to school I saw that my car has been decorated with
"Happy 20th birthday" and "I love you bih!" and "Ghhhhod that's cute!"
also on the inside with Balloons that each say an inside joke
and little plastic farm animals and easter eggs and playdoh
everywhere! It made me feel so special!
Wow, even Daniel called me today to say Happy Bday,
that like... never happens.
I will have pictures, come tonight! | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Phantom Planet- First Things First | | Subject: | Heck yeah, I do. | | Time: | 08:22 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/threnody/mice/m-energetic.gif) bouncy |
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| oh boy oh boy!
Gettin' my projects done... will have pictures very soon because
for my birthday (which is this Thursday) I will be getting a
digital camera from my parents. Weeee! Interactive posts... =P
Oh yes. Very excited about learning screen printing coming up
and finishing up my woodcut prints THIS week. Pics, I promise.
Hung out with Yvette and Carri and had lunch with them... they
make me feel like the funniest person on earth, they laugh at
everything I say, lol. I had fun living on campus and chilling
with them the majority of the time I lived there. Made me miss
the random craziness of on-campus housing, pff.
Had another picnic with my buddy Jamie and my Ceramics teacher
John after class, with Panera on the menu of course. God, we rule.
Ladies and Gentlemen, I ACTUALLY went to math class today.
zzzzzzzzzzz...
Tomorrow I have an appointment with the Study Abroad assisant
director who is charge of the Florence, Italy program with USF.
I am so excited... it will be Spring 2005 most likely. If not
then Fall 2004. I figure Spring is better because I want to take
a beginning Italian language class, and save up some mad money
while getting the VERY last of my required classes done with.
Even Vanessa is considering it because its such a good program.
HAHA, imagine the photo possibilities!
Did I MENTION my birthday is the 18th??? I have absolutely
no idea what I will be doing... no plans, yet! I hope it doesn't suck.
WhateverIDon'tCare, everything is going well now anyway!
PS- I love Matt. KShutupIDon'tCareWhatYouSay. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Interpol- Here Come The Angels | | Subject: | ew. | | Time: | 09:21 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/threnody/mice/m-tired.gif) tired |
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| HAHAHAHA... yeah, he fooled around with some girl at Prom. Asshole.
ANYWAY.
I am so tired from slave laboring at work and slave laboring at school.
My back and legs are killing me, ouch.
oh... and I have a grand idea for a new painting!
what I'm giving up for lent: cursing and being lazy.
I miss my dead cat.
The End for today. Too tired. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Hoolie, you've cried probably more frequently this week of
Spring Break alone, more so than the past 4 months put together.
Obviously something is wrong, or it is a long-term wronging that
you really haven't had the time to just let out until right about
now where you actually have the time to be emotionally stupid
and do it in private, without being surrounded by assholes all the time.
Literally... Jesus Christ. Last week at church I could be totally
moved by one song, (ironically so was my mother,) while everyone
in the general congragation outside of my family had on thier poker
faces chewing thier communion like a Big Mac, while I'm
having this encredible peace from the lyrics of "Do Not Be Afriad"
come over me. I dont even think my mom noticed I was crying until
she looked up from her tears and saw me with the same face.
That time, it felt good to do it.
Then the time where everything just comes down on you at once?
the whole school/work/money thing that everyone my age worries about.
Then the time where just one memory from a family picture and
knowing that you'll never have that back.
(we're trying) But I think it was because its silly how I live at
home again and yet I think I see less of my family then when I
was living on campus.
And there's that whole self-conciousness thing, lets not forget
that balling session when you think about your beautiful friend
has everything you do but yet your magic doesn't really hit people like her's does...
And, like any bleeding-hearted human, just how you see the seams
in the world tear and gouge around your blanket of love and
you just can't keep up with just two pairs of hands and a needle
that just can't GET OVER IT.
Oh yes, and how about... just because?
Just one more, because your tired of it all?
that's the spirit. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Radiohead- Just | | Subject: | Spring Break! | | Time: | 01:18 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/threnody/mice/m-sad.gif) disappointed |
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| Well this is the first official day of Spring Break and I'm
really excited to get things done and have some fun.
Lat night I went to Vanessa's and we had a little get together
with some friends... we ate dinner out by her pool and had some
drinks, played music and danced, you know, typical Hoolie and
Vanessa night. It was the most fun I had in a while, and it made
me feel good that Vanessa and I are still close but at the same
time it makes me sad that shes going to start traveling again
soon and so will I. I love her so much, I even hate how we're in
the same city and we don't spend enough time together as much as
we should. Good thing we'll have some time during this week.
Also, I just want to say that my feelings are....
really
really
hurt right now.
Because all of this talk about how people dont call eachother and
worried about people not getting along or drama this, drama that,
... and when they finally get along I'm left out.
I'm really not mad at all, just really sad.
Whats funnier to me is that when everyone was having problems
they would come to me with them, and I'd try my best to give some
wisdom and use the fact that I've already been through what all
of them are going through to give them a friend that can really
say "I understand." And then my other friends are like, "WHY, Hoolie,
WHY IN THE WORLD do you hang out with them?" And I don't really
have an answer except that I care alot and I honestly want to see them
do well, and part of me misses those old days and I can sort-of
live through them and what they're going through. I really feel
sometimes that I'm needed, but now I know I'm not, and I'm
wondering if right now I'm just being used as a diversion.
It wouldn't suprise me, but for right now it just really hurts, and
its funny because some of them were telling me that they were
worried that some of them dont call and feel like thier losing
eachother, but its okay that they're losing me.
I guess they're better off that way.
Except when it comes to if they need someone else to drive.
I'm not going to let it bother me at all anymore,
I'm done thinking about it and I'm done trying to make everyone else like me,
when I don't even like myself most of the time.
Okay, so I have to catch up with my math class, and go to school
a few times to get this damn printing project OVER WITH before
I lose my mind. I hate having to go there when its vacation. But
I guess that's college for you, and I want this B.F.A. so badly I
can taste it. I think since I'm alone today, and I'm not missing
out on anything since no one has invited me anywhere that I should get some homework done... woohoo... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Phantom Planet- Bad Buisness | | Subject: | EFF YOU! | | Time: | 12:25 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/threnody/mice/m-angry.gif) angry |
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| What am I... CHOPPED LIVER?!?!?!
I hate FAKE people that turn thier back on you at thier convenience.
I'm thier friend when they want something.
Or I'm thier friend when they just feel like having someone.
Or act differently toward me if the scenery's changed.
It's this case with alot of people I know.
*sigh* I'm done, I'm going back to people that are real.
If you think this is about you, it probably is, to some degree.
So F*CK you! | | comments: 14 comments or Leave a comment |
| My ceramics teacher, who I have a giant crush on, actually talked
to me outiside of class. Actually some really personal stuff.
Oh yeah, and he's borrowing Orange County from me. My printmaking
teacher, Matt who is another grad student thinks I should ask
him to go to this gallery opening tomorrow. He always makes fun
of me about him. HAH, pointing out how red my face got.
God, I love windowshopping. =-)
You playas out there KNOW what I'm talking about.
AHhah, just kidding. I'm just having fun in my singlehood.
Any takers? | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Coldplay- Warning Sign | | Subject: | Guess what? | | Time: | 06:14 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/threnody/mice/m-mellow.gif) satisfied |
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| I FINALLY GOT CAR INSURANCE!!! WOOHOO!!!
Oh yeah, and Panera Bread sucks a big one, so I'm applying at
Cheesecake Factory tomorrow. They start at 8 bucks and hour plus tips.
Plus I have experience from Kahunaville nextdoor to them. SCORE.
PS- I got Ghost World on DVD today! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The Darkness is in my head!!! AHHH I LOVE THEM! | | Time: | 01:50 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/threnody/mice/m-okay.gif) blah |
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| I really dont have much to update about, except that I'm getting
REALLY behind in my two art classes, I just can't find the time
to pencil in my sanity and my artwork for school along with effing
PANERA BREAD. Curse that place. I have to work there tonight, ugh.
I wish I didnt have to work so much, maybe I should ask them to
cut my hours. I cant afford losing art time, I think since I only
work a 4 hour shift on Wednesdays that they can get rid of that
for me. It will be a whole day that I can use to catch up.
Meanwhile, I had a fun weekend of spending some time (finally)
with my good friends who are my age, and that I haven't seen in
a while, Vanessa and Victoria. Trish met up with us later and I
think she liked being out with the older girls for a while.
Anyway, the next day was Ariel's cookout and we all piled into
CJ's car, thank goodness for him, because I dont have car insurance,
and thier place is so cute. I finally got to meet most of her
family and I'm excited for them and glad I could be there.
(But I'm mad at her cousin!) lol
Later we went to our regualr Tampa Lanes and it was me, Ceej,
Trish, Crista, John, Daniel, Tek and Sean. Afterwards to SteaknShake
and after that I got a call from John saying that it was really
dangerous outside. To our astonishment we could barely see
anything in front of us! Ceej and I had a few heart to hearts
about alot of things, which was nice. His girlfriend seems lovely.
Things that came out of the night: Tek's "Yeah", CJ's
"Big D", my "CoCo", Trish's "PT" Daniel trying to get Trish to
say "Big D", Crista flying an airplane and noone beliving her,
Ariel's stories about crazy teachers and John and Sean's milkshakes
that I was jealous of. haha. Oh yeah and the WITCHES OF STEAKNSHAKE!
Who spilled water in me with telekenisis. I sware.
Aw, man. I'm in a bitchy mood. Do NOT want to go to work... | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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